after party

so yesterday was the halloween party with some people from work and random crashers.it was fun, i mean to be my first hardcore party it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. and because i am a little shy i wasnt the one dancing all night. anyways everything was going great untill the drunk people decided to get more drunk and then they started getting high. Anyways neff was one of the ones that got drunk and high, not a turn on and then theres lisset sitting on his lap grinding up agaisnt him bigger turn off. so when we were texting this morning to see how he was coping with his hangover we got off topic again. and it ended with me feeling worse than i had last night. however im not mad at him as much as i am at myself, for being so dumb. what i did realise during this conversation is that he really did listen to all the crap that i was venting about and gave me actual advise. i however refuse to listen and will continue to hurt in silence untill i do.( reason im mad) and in his exact words "you have to kinda do it or u'll never get over it" i know i have to do it but its easier said than done.*sigh hes right and as im writting this i realised that i do need to get over it, and i know that he is there to listen which makes me feel better. so from this momment on i am working on getting over it, i am now a new person. wish me luck